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I thought so much about the sense of what we say and do, it's already become a theme for my philosophical reflection.
I think a lot and probably does very little for his life, why I can not make yourself happy, and people close to me.
Maybe I'm afraid to live the reality, because the too afraid to experience disappointment.
I have always defended their own little world, afraid of change.
I never learned to show their true feelings, for example: the true love of admiration and respect for others ...
However, this does not mean that I do not know how to respect and appreciate people.
The problem many people that they too are silent and rarely reveal their feelings to each other. When two people turn in on themselves, problems are accumulating quarrels and divorce.
If people were more candid, it could fix a lot and make people happier.

I so thought, of sense of much that we speak and we do, it has had time to become a theme for my philosophical reflexions.
I think much and I do, for the life probably very little, to that-that I can not make happy myself and close to me of people.
Probably, I am afraid to live a reality, to that-that too strongly I am afraid to feel disappointment.
I always defended the small peace, was afraid of changes.
I and have not learnt to show the true feelings, for example: love admiration true respect and other...
But, it does not mean that I am not able to respect and appreciate people.
Problem of many people that they are silent too much and seldom open the feelings before the friend-friend. When two persons become reserved, accumulate problems there are quarrels and divorces.
If people, were more often frank, it could correct and make much people more happily.

I thought so much about what we say and what we do that it became the subject of this essay.
I must admit I think more than I actually do in real life, and this might be the reason I can’t be happy and I also make people that are close to me unhappy.

I might be simply afraid of living the real life, as I think I might get hurt or get disappointed.

I always thought I need to protect myself from the brutal reality, I was afraid of the outside world and any changes that might happen to me.

It’s still very difficult for me to show my true feelings (like love, adoration, respect, admiration) to other people. Though it doesn’t mean I don’t have them or can't love or respect other people.

The problem a lot of people have is that they are closing themselves to the outside world, don’t communicate and don’t let other people know how they feel.

When two persons stop talking and refuse to share what they think, they are very likely to be misunderstood even more and not to get a normal way of communication which will lead to more misunderstanding, quarrels and fights and eventually a divorce.

I believe if we can communicate better and open ourselves to other people it would help a lot to save our relationships and make everyone happy.
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the bottom line is:
Communication is the key!