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Возможно, есть какие то недочеты в тексте, но в общем текст выглядит следующим образом:
going on the road the end which you don't know. it seemed to me the most cruel and wrong. when you haven't idea where the next time you fall, how low will fall at what they stumble. Heart torn from very crack, explode, destroying all around. And you continue to smile, playing in the play, saying that everything is fine, though nothing was as if you're okay, if you don't know that all these people hate you. None of their contempt meant nothing to me. I was just annoyed their hypocrisy. I looked into his eyes and saw hatred, staring at his lips, which played a nasty smile. Why not make life easier? Do not throw it all at once. Don't open all the cards? Screamed as loud as possible. Shout. Cry. Beat everything that comes their way. That's what I'd call quiet. When you fully relax, run away far from his thoughts. but the chance I never will be, how many ways of looking, and all ended in the same way. PLANT blog, friends; but why? why everyone always comes to an end. I tried to continue, at least in this, and it makes no sense. Maybe I'm too pessimistic! Perhaps I should smile more often in the shower. I beg. Give me a reason. I beg you. I want to smile. I would like to sincerely laugh. Stay close, without lies, without hypocrisy, with out violen.
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